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First of all, I'm badly hurt as I'm being seen as an invisible human. Went to the wash room, I banged on you but you acted like you didn't see me and didn't even say anything. It's okay then I just leave you alone and I'll sit at a corner. There's no difference I've been there or not and I doesn't seem to be welcomed at all. Saw you today and it was like, I don't know how to say it but it's very hurting. I even saw you leaving and now you're doing things that we've done before very happily with someone else during late nights. I know I'm a loser, I know today and the next outings I'm a joy sucker, and the next outing for the movies, I won't be going cuz' I really don't wanna see you hurting me unintentionally. Feels like bashing and slapping you but it doesn't worth anything and it's hurting myself but not you. You'll never awake. Things that you've got and played, the next thing to do is to throw away and get a new one. Being treated like a target to gold, gold to precious, and precious to dump. I will just remember you're the one who hurt me most in my life. Since I bothered you making you so confused of your life, I might as well just fall sick cuz' I really didn't had any good meals, sent to hospital and news sent to you that I'm dead and completely faded from your world. And since now you left me aside breathing with sorrow, I rather die than suffering as how you wanted to see me struggle to smile a lil' bit. You've made me worthless. Heart broken like shit, feels like you don't wanna live anymore. I HATE LUST.

Baby won't you tell me why there isn't feelings in your heart

I don't wanna say goodbye to you

Love is one big illusion I should try to forget

But there is something left in my head

You're the one who set it up

Now you're the one to make it stop

I'm the one who's feeling lost right now

Now you want me to forget every little thing you said

But there is something left in my head

I won't forget the way you're kissing

The feelings so strong were lasting for so long

But I'm not the girl your heart is missing

That's why you go away I know

You were never satisfied no matter how I tried

Now you wanna say goodbye to me

Love is one big illusion I should try to forget

But there is something left in my head

Sitting here all alone in the middle of nowhere

Don't know which way to go

There is so much to say now between us

There ain't so much for you

There ain't so much for me anymore

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picked from MLTR : That's Why (You Go Away)