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First of all, I'm badly hurt as I'm being seen as an invisible human. Went to the wash room, I banged on you but you acted like you didn't see me and didn't even say anything. It's okay then I just leave you alone and I'll sit at a corner. There's no difference I've been there or not and I doesn't seem to be welcomed at all. Saw you today and it was like, I don't know how to say it but it's very hurting. I even saw you leaving and now you're doing things that we've done before very happily with someone else during late nights. I know I'm a loser, I know today and the next outings I'm a joy sucker, and the next outing for the movies, I won't be going cuz' I really don't wanna see you hurting me unintentionally. Feels like bashing and slapping you but it doesn't worth anything and it's hurting myself but not you. You'll never awake. Things that you've got and played, the next thing to do is to throw away and get a new one. Being treated like a target to gold, gold to precious, and precious to dump. I will just remember you're the one who hurt me most in my life. Since I bothered you making you so confused of your life, I might as well just fall sick cuz' I really didn't had any good meals, sent to hospital and news sent to you that I'm dead and completely faded from your world. And since now you left me aside breathing with sorrow, I rather die than suffering as how you wanted to see me struggle to smile a lil' bit. You've made me worthless. Heart broken like shit, feels like you don't wanna live anymore. I HATE LUST.

Baby won't you tell me why there isn't feelings in your heart

I don't wanna say goodbye to you

Love is one big illusion I should try to forget

But there is something left in my head

You're the one who set it up

Now you're the one to make it stop

I'm the one who's feeling lost right now

Now you want me to forget every little thing you said

But there is something left in my head

I won't forget the way you're kissing

The feelings so strong were lasting for so long

But I'm not the girl your heart is missing

That's why you go away I know

You were never satisfied no matter how I tried

Now you wanna say goodbye to me

Love is one big illusion I should try to forget

But there is something left in my head

Sitting here all alone in the middle of nowhere

Don't know which way to go

There is so much to say now between us

There ain't so much for you

There ain't so much for me anymore

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picked from MLTR : That's Why (You Go Away)

Singing Competition

It's "So You Think You Can Sing" competition at Taylor's College. As you know my best friend Tony who loves to sing very much got into the semi-final list with Li Wei (Tiffany). They were the first duet to start with and they started by singing "Ni Zui Zhen Gui" some kind of it, by Jacky Cheung and a lady, and obviously they're nervous though. They got into the final list of 5 and they sang "Hao Xin Fen Shou" by Lee Hom and a lady (I forgot her name :x) Unfortunately, they didn't manage to win any prizes but consolations from us. In our hearts, you're the winner not them. It's okay, try better and be more prepared next time (:

All of us went over to Yen's house to eat some pork and Tony, Kay and Zhong left early to Kezanne's birthday party as I'm not invited cuz' she couldn't recognise me when I last saw her and be the first to greet "Hi!" to her at Neway Karaoke, Times Square. Then, Ivan have to fetch Emily back and so they left together with them. While I left with Tuck Yik, homie, bro and Jern Zhen. That's all for the day. Ciaoz.

Oops! A lil' late update here! Almost forgot to post some important moments of the four of us (Kay, Yen, Phoebe and I). This was taken on the day Tony and Phoebe surprised us with "Kayz Return" in his Estima. It's been damn long that Kay has been missing in many of our group pics (:

A lil' formal one here after stopping by McDonald's Drive Thru.

At night, while waiting for the Leong couple in the car at Telephone Restaurant.

Tongue & smoochies! :p

Totally 70's Party

Gathered homie, bro and Tuck Yik with Yen at our high school and waited Darren. After Darren was here, Tony who said he couldn't go at first gave a call and said he could join us now. And of course we waited for him. While waiting, me and Yen just cam whored :p

Me and Yen on 70's ! :p

It's us again! :D

Budget ticket but looks a lot better than our previous high school's one!

At 7.00pm+ left the school to my college by 2 cars (mine & Darren's) and luckily it wasn't as jam as I thought. Reached college before 7.30pm, started with eating and everything. Unfortunately, we might get wet so I don't wanna hurt my baby camera so kept it in the bag and left it in a room. We played a few games like back-passing water balloons, ice-breaking by "Wind-Blow-Wind", best dressed award for both female and male, and last of all scissors-paper-stone. I nearly won the best dressed female ): but the another girl, who's from Penang taking Fashion Design 1.1 won it from me ): Try harder for the next event urgh!

Anyways I even got wet and it's hell wet! Stupid balloons burst even it didn't landed on my short finger nails and another was cuz' there's a hole in it and as it squeezed it wets my skirt! Thanks, Zhong for such balloons and he's gonna wash my clothes for me I don't care! RARRR

Everyone actually got wet any, bits here and there cuz' the last part was spraying around and throwing water balloons at each other. After it ended we took a few pictures before we left (:

Besties <333

Besties with Zhong who got splashed by someone somehow.

That's all for the night and it's organized by Zhong's class, Interactive Media. Ciaoz.

Other updates might be a lil' slow. Try my best tomorrow.

I was happy during the party and enjoyed a lil' than waiting for your answer. The reason I don't want your answer on Friday which is better for me to decide should I go to my best friend's singing competition were I don't wanna spoil my mood for this party and memories of getting answers on Friday were still in my mind. Hope you'll be on time this time. Saturday, 2pm.

Sorrowfied

As everybody says, regret. Wanna know the answer? Find out who treats me real good and now he's not. Clues were given and it's a HE. Emotional for months again.

Fully Daunted ):

Post for the bad day ): Nights, ciaoz.

Miss The Old Times

It's true that people said we should enjoy our school life of being close together with our friends. Now as all of us left the school and most of us went to college, we start to miss each other and the moments we had before. As for me, I miss my class 5sc3, 2008. Naughty and playful but helpful and nice.

Miss Ms. Lim Li Ping a.k.a Ping Jie ;)

A formal one with her before she leaves and then..

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Informal :D

And when we collect rubbish together for the Recycle Campaign, I remembered that we skipped Ms. Mabil's English or EST class for this ;p

Of course we did camwhore together during class photo sessions (:

5 science 3 in formal photo session

Instead of peace sign, 3 is better to represent our class ;)

Another arrangment (:

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Camwhore time! :D

Oh gosh, Phoebe and I both got slapped in this shot! ):

Another pose before it begins ;)

Bring it on!

Ting ting ting!

Rest time (:

In class with Ms.Nirmala the class teacherOutdoor : Girls (:

Outdoor : Guys (:

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And the other randoms :D

Assistant and Monitor of 4 sc 3 2007

Monitor & Assistant of 5 sc 3 2008

Chong Ti, Chee Yong, Kin, Seong Soon (:

The smokers of 5 science 3 ;pGuys that I usually hang out with (:

Lovely Woon and Chee Yong romancing <333

Chee Yong & Seong Soon. Gangster? or just lepak?

What are Tony, Chee Yong & Eric doing??

Peeing Session???

Kin's proving that he's as strong as the bats :x

Bored

Worst outing ever I've gone to was today. After college, Tony invited Eric, Yen and I over to Neway Karaoke again. We went there and just stared at Tony and Li Wei singing the same old song again, again and all over again! Damn it, it's like damn annoying to me now. Since we have nothing to do and no chance to sing, Yen and I slept in the room. And I heard a bloody comment from a bloody person's mouth saying that we came here to waste money to sleep. Okay I'm pissed with that sentence as I was sleeping instead I woke up to stare. I didn't purposely go there to sleep. If we really have the mood or chance to sing of course we'll sing but the problem is if we do sing how are you gonna like train for your damn competition?! I know you guys sing very well and I sucked like a sucka. So what's the big deal?!

Anyways, went back home an hour earlier and took a real short nap and then left the house for a movie with family at Pavilion. Went to Pastamania for dinner and then movie. We watched Transformer 2 and yeah of course I know it's quite late but nevermind since it's with family. And a few days before watching this movie, I heard from the radio saying that Megan Fox the hot chick is a man?! I totally got stunned and can't believe whether if it's true or not. After the movies, we saw that Megan's neck it's not as firm as the ladies and it's like man's. Oh well, what a waste. Most of the Megan Fox admirers were very depressed about it ;p

Happy Birthday to my dear shih tzu (Esprit) !

Happy Birthday Seong Leng!

I miss my puppy ):

Esprit you're 1 year old now! Be good girl though I can't be by your side but hope you know that I still love you ): and I miss you damn much ever since you left me.. Happy Birthday dear one! (:

Baby Esprit

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Fluffy fat Esprit (:

No. 7

Woke up quite late and went on according to what we'd planned yesterday during our tea sessions together with Tony, Eric, Zhong, Chee Yong, Li Wei, Phoebe and Vincent. We planned to visit our high school at 1pm after school hours. Still we have problems with the stupid rules of the school and we went to the field and played volleyball. Unfortunately that VINCENT LIEW left us there without getting us a volleyball to play and went for lunch with his friends since he drove. After volleyball then Li Wei just came and we went out for lunch with her car cuz' it's the biggest car among us. Oh well, after having ABC and some Cendol at Taman Muda (桃子园) went to Queen's Park to visit my favourite pet DOGGIES! They're soooo adorable and I love em' so much, especially those recent borned puppies! :D

Planned something when we're back into the car while going back to school. We wrote 7 of our names in each piece of paper cuz' 7 of us came to school from different places and 7 of us drove. Reached school and did the drawlots. The results were :

Tony's Vios - Chee Yong

Eric's Myvi - Ivy

Zhong's Myvi - Li Wei

Chee Yong's Wira - Phoebe

Li Wei's Naza - Eric

Phoebe's City - Tony

Ivy's Myvi - Zhong

Okay, not all cars were nice. Since there's new drivers for each car, some will face speed, view and some other problems. First, Chee Yong said Tony's car is nice and quite fast. Second, I drove Eric's car with only 1 RIGHT side mirror. Third, Li Wei said that Myvi is too short where it's very fine with me though! Fourth, Phoebe said she face speed difficulties in Chee Yong's car. Fifth, Eric has no problem with any cars. Sixth, the poor one, Tony, planned to buy balloons over to my house and play water balloons when we're swimming. He said who took the City must go and buy balloon somewhere and pay buy one's own money, end up he's the lucky bullseye. Seventh, Zhong said mine was better than his and could even go faster than his cuz' mine's older version. Double signalled all the way to my house and the result :

1st - Eric

2nd - Chee Yong

3rd - Ivy

4th - Zhong

5th - Li Wei

6th - Phoebe

LAST is of course the balloon boy - TONY

Went swimming except for Eric and Li Wei and Chee Yong swam awhile and left with Li Wei. And all left at 7pm++ to Tony's restaurant and Phoebe went home.

After all these, do you think someone's missing? Where's my dear Anne? She lives just 6 floors below me and she didn't join? Where's she? :p

4th of July :

Happy Birthday Phay Yan!

Happy Birthday Ho Yin!